Derreck Burden

Remember the face because she no longer belongs to you.

So it happens again. Me not dealing with him for six years he comes back into my life and does the same shit that he did when we were young. I feel so stupid thinking that this dude has changed but he is still the biggest coward that i have always known him to be. How can you allow someone to be in your presence and they don't like your children? How can you look someone in the face that destroyed your property things that you worked hard for and she is just allowed back in like it is okay? It will be one of those things that i will never understand but I will not waste any of my time trying to figure it out. Over all of those years i always felt like I was never good enough because he always choose someone else over me and I was the one that would never hurt him and I loved him the most. But the thing is I know now that I'm to good for him that's what it all comes down to. He doesn't deserve someone like me I'm beautiful inside and out, funny,caring,genuine,helpful and loving  he deserves the trash that he runs into and that is no more of my concern. What he doesn't know is that I have gone through beyond pain and hurt and also being disrespected and I'm all grown up. And trust me those days of being that gullible googly eyed opened heart girl are so long ago, I'm a grown woman and he is not dealing with the same person. I can have anybody I want I can have better then him. Goodbye my first love it was nice knowing you but there is bigger and better and I'm just getting started.